Today when I was walking Sweetsie in the neighborhood I said hello to some neighbors. They were a young couple working together in their yard. It hit me again how strange it feels to not be part of a couple. It was never in my plans. I guess I thought I might be a widow someday. But that was in the future, not now.
I've joined the league of older single women. It's a big club. But, it feels weird to be a member of it. Jim used to talk about growing old together. Maybe if he hadn't mentioned it, I wouldn't be thinking of it now.
There are a lot of positives to living alone. I can buy whatever I want for my house without consulting anyone, watch whatever I want on TV, listen or not listen to any music, go to bed when I feel like it, etc. But, I'm not sure I'll ever grow used to it. Or maybe I already have - I just bought a new car. I researched different models, chose one and bought it.
It is wonderful to be independent. It just continues to feel weird.
